Tinsel last fell at 11:37 p.m..
hey, lol, its Mingie, da main reason why Im gonna blog mai ass off is cuz of margaret, lol ima beat her damn 2097 werd entry if i have to stay up till 2:00 okay? but okay, first starting with an account of the day...^^

I tried to get up maddd early to take a nice 3 hr shower...nope didn't werk out, 4 minute shower...then I grabbed choclate pudding n a spoon n raced to the car. Ooo n at the subway, dere wuz da most DISGUSTING sight. omfg! Lyke near the curb, there wuz a pigeon almost smashed flat, but with a WING sticking up. it was SO disturbing. omg, lyke, the head wuz still in tact but a car obviously ran over part of its body n other wing. The wrost thing wuz, it wuz still MOVING n i wuz lyke wtf? mai dad keeps on going "o ya kno, pigeons are smart, they can fly away in time" but nxt time, ima make him brake or else ima slap his ass. Poor damn pigeons. Its so grotesque....*shudder* okay...then I got on the E, took it to Roosevelt, cuz the R already left frum 71st, n so I got on the R frum Roosevelt, to 59th, chattering with Ruth a 9th grader n Michelle Ting, whu lives across the street frum me ^^;; When I got on the 6 I got sooo confused, dere were two ways to go up to the Uptown n I couldn't figure out which way to take cuz I tawt one was only the exit or sumtin...im madd slow. but okay, when I got to school, I raced to copy mai math hw, cuz I haven't done it since septemeber...^^;; N then I had math nxt period. But first I wrote a long ass 2 pg. letter to liz ^_- n I had to give it to sum1 in her class to give it to her. The letter is akshulli madd funnie...I wuz realli bored so...hehe. deres a wierd lil excerpt frum a convo dat I'll post in the blog later but okay, back to mai shitty ass day. I zipped through math, ms. aboody leaving me alone cuz I got 100 on mai math test (margaret got the extra credit! *cries* I left ONE thing out n I got it wrong....*SUHNIFF*) But afta class...I went to spanish where we had lyke, the worst quiz EVER. I think I got a 2 on it. N da thing is, dere wuz a bonus I could've gotten..except I heard da teacher wrong....he sed imperfect, not preterite from, but I put preterite, so.....grr...oo wut wuz realli funnie wuz dat, since I wuz already slouching, I wuz so depressed, I jes slinked down in my chair further n I slid under n onto the floor. Then I got up...gracefully....erk, n pretended nothing happened lol. It was realli funnie, cuz usually when I feel myself slinking down I stop, but this time I wuz lyke fuk it. Im so silly...n then Lizzie n Lior n every1 next to me burst out laffin. XD okay…afterwards…I practically ran out of the room, god I hate Spanish. Jerry dragged me to health with him (even tho I wuz trying to hide frum ms. GROS, she saw me --;;;;;) It wuz really funnie, cuz Howard went in late, n his hair is all spiky n shit, so I pulled his hood over his hair as he went into the room, n den I ran, n of COURSE he dun care if he’s even later, he’s lyke ahh bitch, n den whacks me, I tell him he’s gonna be late, he’s lyke o shit, goes back to the room, n den I pull da hood agen. XD I dink I enjoy pissing ppl off TOO much. Akshulli…mebbe its cuz Caleb has been provoking me the whole week…gRrr…lol but neway, after 7th…

I got dragged to flushing w/ lesh c…liz,sunna, sarah, Karen, joyce, danny, steven, shin, howard n jonson (damn yo, we took over the 7, we were lying all ova da place lol.) n den…hmm…we split up wen we go to flushing, liz, sunna, sarah went to bay terrace n applebees, I didn’t wanna eat so I didn’t go with them…then I went with Karen n Joyce to magic castle n bubble tea, while da “guys” lol went to cyberland. After bubble…joyce proposed the idea to stalk the guys…n so we went to cyberland also. Ahhaa, joyce n Karen were madd scared going up da stairs, dey were lyke, Ming yoo go first…im lyke okay…bcuz I’ve never been dere, so I dunno wut to be scared of…n we go up, n its pretty normal, n den da second we see sum1, Joyce n Karen start lyke talking, “Er…Shin? Do yoo kno where Shin is?” The counter person wuz lyke thinking “friends of shin..” okay, let dem in. lol. But okay, we went in, dey were all dere play star craft n counterstrike. Me n Karen plopped down, Joyce hovered around Howard to watch him lose. We talked fer a while, but it wuz boring..den Jonson left, I stole his chair n watched ppl play. (it wuz madd weird cuz usually I dun sit in chairs properly, espcially not cushy chairs, I leaned mai back on one arm rest n hanged mai knees on the other. So mai posture is SO bad. xP) lesh c…Joyce counted that Howard died 24 timesi n a period of 10 mins. Hehe im being mean again. Okay, moving on…later, sunna, sarah n liz went to cyberland also, cuz dey wanted to play counter strike. It wuz really funnie, cuz every1 kept on dying, then eventually, liz, sunna, sarah, howard, steven, n danny were all playing on teams. N howard usually got killed first, den steven wud kill ppl randomly, cuz he’s madd gud, den sunna started getting gud, n so did sarah n liz. It wuz so weird. N den shin kept helping liz so she started doing really gud. N after a while, howard left, n steven backed out n watched sarah n sunna n liz gang up on danny. It wuz a manhunt okay? He had no chance but he won lyke twice. LoL. Fluke. XP oo n while dey were playing dey kept on changing dere names to insult each other it wuz really funnie it wuz lyke “shinupussy” n “howardubiggerpussy” it wuz…interesting…n den also, in counterstrike, yoo can HOP so, one time danny’s name wuz “”gay bunny hop” or sumtin. Hehe, meanwhile, me n Karen n joyce were jes watching. I played for liz a coupla times, I killed danny n steven once on a fluke lol, n all da times I got her killed. ^^;;; Then we lyke, all left at 5…n we went to magic castle, liz n sarah played pump…n den we went home. *whew*

Okay, I mentioned a convo…I wuz so proud…howard is more perverted den me.
Supernatural913: ming
Auto response from TiNsElWiNgEd: sry, bbl, doing my spanish hw, go fuck a wall xD
Supernatural913: u cant fuck a wall
Supernatural913: ill prove it
xD lol, n liz n sunna were arguing bout it on da seven train…sunna’s lyke, of course yoo can fuk a wall…holes in walls…doik. Liz wuz lyke but, it’s a wall yadadada. They were also discussing sperm n dere TAILS okay? NASTY SHIT. N meanwhile joyce’s underwear kept on falling n she kept on adjusting. XP

ooo n on da way home, me n liz were talking,since a couple of ppl are leaving, I think dat we shud all lyke, come to flushing n take studio pics. Lyke, da whole clique lol. The girls, the guys…the…bi’s…I dink it would be interesting lol. XD Partially cuz, nxt year, ima be madd busy, n I prolli wun be able to go out as much so, I want a photo of everyone…n also, wen I look back on eighth grade, I wanna c every1 we knew n stuff…hehe xD but I’ll dink bout it… N also I’ve been tink bout relationships n shit…I dun lyke, how ppl date fer da hell of it. Its lyke, love needs to be respected n shit, n its an actual true thing. Not just a hormone raging type thing. N I dink in relationships, lyke, confrontation n communication along w/ respect, love etc. is important or else, wth is da point? I dink at this point in our life, we can’t undestand everything…n were not ready so we shudn’t bother try…lyke, really, wen I dink bout it…love? Whu da hell wants that? But lyke we shudn’t disrespect it n lyke make lite of it. Cuz really, very few ppl fall in love n shit, n I dink its rare…n not sumtin to pretend…me n mai morals xP seeing how I speak so…erm..passionately about love n shit, one mite think I’ve been burned by love or sumthing LOL but its really funnie, cuz I jes learned this frum pure observation n its so strange…cuz all ma friends suffer frum dere lil heartaches n stuff…lol…but lyke, I lyke dat I can learn lyke this, hell I wanna write a book on fucking love. N convince ppl not to be stoopid n fall fer it. XP n da thing is, I dink I can still kinda see straight, having never been in love. Love kinda twists ppl’s tawts…n im untwisted n I have a clear mind so I think Im able to make logical answers without effect frum love. *shrug* or mebbe its jes me trying to sound important Lol god im stoopid. Bjut ooo…n also I dink dat too many ppl fall in love w/ da idea of love, n dey look around for it n dey mistake friendship n love which usually scroos things up. Iono its jes what I think…whatever, love is pain n love is a piece of total shit. LoL. Friends are all I need… n I have enough of those ^^ madd nice. Hehe.

Right now…im lyke, winding up on my rant lol…im a lil saddened by my own more sarcastic views on love but lol o well…but now im jes thinking…im living mai last few days in freedom…report cards get out nxt week n im REALLI scared…cuz I did really bad in Health cuz I wuz madd stoopid…n im scared of what mai parents mite do…lyke seriously. I think, Ms. Gros is a real bitch…lyke really, I think she really truly hates me with lyke the weirdest thing, ever since, da lil incident, she’s been lyke holding a grudge against me even tho I do mai fucking werk n shit…n it really pisses the hell outta me. N lyke, I can do well n stuff…she jes feels lyke being a fucking ass hole…the worst part is I need to bring up ma ihealth grade 6 pts…n she’s lyke yoo can extra credit n shit but 6 pts? No fucking way..omfg…once mai parents see it, dere gonna be lyke…wtf, n I kno dere gonna pull dere, be guilty mother fucker, trip on me, n den ima cry, n its gonna be shitty…even tho I pulled up almost EVERY OTHER GRADE dere gonna jes stare at it n be lyke…wtf are yoo doing in this class…n lyke, I can’t explain to them why, cuz dey’ll ask me why the fuk were yoo so fucking stoopid ? n dey da understand mai feelings toward my friends n dey dun respect them. Dey think dere jes friends around for parties n shit, but really, I think hunter ppl are a lot tightly knit then mai parents think, n I dun wanna be an ass. But the thing is, its gonna hurt so much wen dey stare at me, dere going to kick mai ass so fucking hard its really not funny. I really wish she cud take off the lowest quiz grade or sum shit but god, I hate ms. Gros rite now…lyke she could have been kinder with it…she could have directly taken off points frum my report card not mai fucking test…or she could have let me take another test also…omg, Im jes stuck dwelling on it cuz I can’t help it, cuz I have dat sinking feeling. Where I kno something really bad will happen n…dat really wun werk…n im reallli…really…scared. N mai parents will prolli ask to see ms. Gros, n I can’t let them…cuz she’ll tell them n dey’ll get so…utterly pissed…iono…im jes worrying….wut will mai parents think…n I really love Giselle, I do but sumtiems I wish I weren’t so damn nice, n den I realize im not dat gud of a pershun…n its madd scary to me, cuz I pride maiself on being gud n shit…but damn its hard…but ya kno, o well, God wanted it dis way, so..daz dat. I’ll blog more later…dis has turned furm competition to jes simple bitching…lol..whatever.

Song of the Day – JTL – Better Day
Cuz im wating fer a better day.
why do i always end on a depressed note? o yea cuz dis is a bitch blog...not a happy blog..

Wednesday, April 10, 2002
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Tinsel last fell at 11:41 p.m..
im bored. ^^;;; where have yoo heard dis before? lol. hmm...a lot of wierd shit going on w/ pplz, n as usual im going to be blathering about...superficial non consequencial stuff. xD. well akshulli mai report card grade is very consequencial...
okay well, mai health grade went down...a lot...because I wuz trying to help sum1 on da test n I ended up getting scrood over n getting HALF of mai points taken away. So....I ended up with a 84 instead of a lyke 92 or sumtin...so im SERIOUSLY FUCKED. xD. on da udda hand, englihs i got 95, spanish 89, science, im hoping for a 98. xD. but hopefully I wun scroo ss n math...ouch...but wutever...short blog...i'll end with a lil quote thing.
"You are inexpeirienced in love. Wait and oneday, we'll see if you can breathe with only air."
"I need nothing but air and sustenance to survive"
"Everyone needs love, everyone needs their whole soul."
"Not at the risk of shattering the rest..."

Song of the Day - Utada Hikaru - Wait + See
im in sap-mode.

Tuesday, April 9, 2002
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Tinsel last fell at 11:01 p.m..
i feel realli stoopid, iono, i procrascinate too much n all dat shit n sumtimes i kno what my parents wud want me to do but i jes can't do it...n then deres wat i need to do n what realli happens...iono, its jes wierd stuff im going through dat keeps running through my head. lol damn im wierd. but wutever, im in confused mode todae. n im slowly switching to bitch mode im silly...but o well kill me sum1? ya kno wut, im going to talk in chinese, so i can blog jes not...blog understandbly to every1.
wo you de shi ho hui xiang wo ba wo de zheng peng you fang xia lai gei jia de, na ho yo de shi ho wo dui wo de peng you hen hao, bu xiang jiu rou peng you dan shi ta men dui wo bu yi yang. hen qi guai. na ho, wo de ma ma ba ba yi zi shuo ta men shi jiu rou peng you, bu bi dui ta men duo hao dan shi wo hen ai ta men ah...shuo yi hen guai....na ho bu si na yang da ai...xP wo xiang wo zi ji hen ke lian ye hen ben, gai shi de. ^^;;; dan si wo xiang wo hen pa shi shuo yi ye hen qi guai...wo zi dao wo shu yao zhou she me dan shi wo bu nen zhou...xiang pleasing wo de ma ma ba ba, wo bu nen zhou dao...hen ke xi...lu gou wo zhou dao le wo jiu fang xing le...okay im not making sense in chinese even but it doesn't matter cuz no one will get it....wutever...im a lil depressed n give up-ready so....i'll blog later....must go depress self...xD zai jian.

Wednesday, March 20, 2002
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Tinsel last fell at 02:16 p.m..
ahh, rite after i typed up an entry i remembered da wierdest dream... ya kno x/1999? with Kamui and Fuuma? I dreamt I WAS KAMUI, i wuz up on the cross with Fuuma next to me n i literally jes gave up. we were jes hanging there...i recall pain... Fuuma was focking scarying me, ready to jump off the cross, i wuz so scared he wuz gonna succeed in getting the world n scrooing it ova i jes gave up...iono i had one of those out of body moments, i jes literally took a dagger and threw it at kamui/myself. fuuma wuz lyke ripping himself/arms off the cross n i wuz lyke shit...n i killed myself...dat wuz very AWKWARD. espcailly since dat means im dead n da world's focked...hmm...tells yoo sumtin bout mingie n her attitude toward life...but iono im tRYING not to be like dat but i guess it jes hurts too much sumtimes...im only fucking human... *shrug* i hope it didn't mean much, (lol) but ya kno, i dink it wuz a warning... be gud, dun give up too easily. i'll try but promises....

Saturday, March 16, 2002
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Tinsel last fell at 01:58 p.m..
lol its jes one of those saturdays where its lyke *splat* lets not do anything, lets not be alive for a while. i feel very blah-ish. lyke, absolutely calm and bored. i organized my favorites...i shud organize my computer but fuck dat though scares me there's lyke 3 gigs of stuff labeled "????" xD its damn sad akshulli. iono y da hell i save all my stuff, when i go to college...n yea daz gonna happen, ima be lyke.. "delete" n den mourn all my shit. LOL, i dink ima do dat when i enter ninth ahahah. den ima be lyke *tears* where's my shit? ahah. neway, its one of those days...these few days have been alright actually...iono, nothing realli on da social front n im happy about dat...i jes have to refuck my english essay n its all gud...n den i have to get a life, organize da shambles of whats left...yea o well. i have a pretty gud state of mind rite now lol. *shrug* im also not going to bitch half as much as i want to. daz my post-new years resolution...3 months late. xD but its all gud, cuz i can get started now. but okay, what da hell have i been doing with my life? nuthin. i've been helping my sister her and her im-a-happy-senior-promer thing. hmmm...
she's got her purple jappy dress which does lyke gud on her but dere was annuda one she dreamt about wearing with a slightly lower back but it was red..n it was pretty...*sigh* o well. but mm....neway...fer her bday, im showering her with her lil moonlite path scent and a bracelet. ahaha, a week before her prom she's gonna start bathing in moonlight path and then prom nite she's gonna be lyke "phewww damn daz strong" lol, daz gonna be maddd funnie. but okay...oo i figured out my thoughts on dating.
dating is a practice dat is BRUTAL on girls and guys. Girls, the actual date hurts, two days of whining and worrying geez man its jes a fockin DATE not ur WEDDING u stoopid ho-s n yooor make up ^^;;;;; guys, its realli fockin hilarious, *sum ppl* get dragged around, n it kinda influences decisions it realli shudn't. LOVE shud not equal LIFE damnit. GET DAT STRAIGHT. n also we're 13-14 we still have a decade or so to get da marriage/love part straight.
but ya kno, dat settling down thing dun werk out, holla back to me, im going to be chillin at a mansion in the mountains w/ my self n friends. lol. daz wut i want to neway. I wanna be fockin rich n i wanna chill w/ myself n friends. its one of those wierd happy ideals. lol. parrtttyyyy. n guys? wanna get away frum naggin wives, dey can come party too. xD. lol, daz in da far far future tho but i wanna make dat happen. i want dat to happen realli bad... i wanna be dat lil recluse in the mountains dat ppl go to fer help. ahaha. interesting ne? but yea daz my only goal in life i guess..... daz my meaning of life, to party in the mountains. =) daz sumtin to look forward to, to work for. n i'll werk fer it yuuuup. lol
but ya kno daz life, my lil dream prolli wun werk out, true love comes only when yoo werk fer it, lil girls have shattered dreams, ever-afters dun exist but ya kno wut, try fer it, n come cryin wen yoo realize it wun werk. cuz who knows, if the cow keeps jumping one of these days, sum1 will help it fly ova da moon. but alrite, i'll stop preaching. xD *mumbles* im trying not to lecture ppl either but things jes come fllllyyyiiin out. xD neway. ima go c wut my sister newly dl-ed fer me to watch, dere r sum madd cute animes out and movies lol.
Saturday, March 16, 2002
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Tinsel last fell at 06:12 p.m..
ouch i dink i shud be @ tutoring...lolz iono but w/e i'll go tmr....god wen did I get so gud at lying? mai mom wuz lyke, why r yoo home so late im lyke oo health project, she's lyke ur friend called n i dun believe yoo where's ur stuff, i take mai notebook out w/ sum folded papers n i jes hold it w/ dis bitchy ass look on mai face lyke I can't believe she dusn't believe me. n den she's lyke, look me in the eyes n tell me yoo weren't doing sum wierd shit im lyke i wuzn't doing nething I wuz in school doing mai project, i mean i wuzn't doing nething but still, project? yeaa ritee. but o well, daz wut happens wen yoo get de-innocentized. lol but whatever, mai health is due friday...argh wut hw do i hab...
eng -- read already did
sci - lab, pre-lab
health - group shit
math - three variable equation
spanish - copy vocab, pg 457
music - test
DAMN betta get started....
Song on Repeat - Puddle of Mud - Blurry

Wednesday, February 20, 2002
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Tinsel last fell at 05:33 p.m..
im bloggin wahhaa i shud be doin mai health project which I have to email SUM1 at 6-7 pm not am dank yoo very much. Its on B complex n magnesium...I dink all I need is lyke 2 pages? n also biblography...o.0;;; n den da presentation... ugh im not looking forward to dish...i REALLI hope that we go on friday...pretty pretty please...waugh. but i have to hand in the paper neway...akshulli its not dat hard I jes HATE research w/ a PASSION. but o well I'm gettin a coupla books n i have a lot already...I jes hate writing...x( blergh ok me gonna do werk...n afta dis I also have SS i dink im going to do it on da train, i'll make arrangements w/ lizzie...x) cuz i have to be at da school at 7:30 to practice (which means 7:45 xD) but okay, i dun dink i hab ne other hw...which is excellent...cept reading which I also can do...so health, science, ss, english n daz it...wow n da onli thing dat requires werk is health n ss. okay.
+Song on Repeat - Craig David - Once in a Lifetime
I don't kno where I picked this up...realli I don't...

Tuesday, February 19, 2002
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Tinsel last fell at 06:47 p.m..
Oooo im bloggin. lolz, but yea im back....liz told me to do hw...n i did, realli i did but i didn't have much hw i could do so YAY. xP I'm ignoring a lot of stuff i have on my mind/that I have to do hehe instead I looked through my creative writing section/hw shit n i found a lot of the stuff i thought i handed in really weren't what I handed in, its saved as a COMPLETELY different thing and that bothers me...cuz i threw out EVERY SINGLE ESSAY/CREATIVE WRITING after I got it back...sooo.....um yea im scrooed. But I found sum stuff I lyked, sum stuff I will never look at again and sum stuff I'm willing to post so xD go me. n i also have to stare at my to do list or make one....blah. but okay im posting a blurb multiple blurbs wutever.

This one is about sum girl whu wuz running away from a lord who is after her and her lover. half way through the country they got caught, he got killed she waltzed into an inn and into the shower and she's just thinking.

I barely remember to slam the wooden door shut behind me…but who would really care at a time like this? In slow painful movements I drop the katana, strip, and test the water. Squeezing my eyes shut I twist the knob and the sudden spurt of freezing water turns boiling hot. Scathingly, it pounds on my head, running in rivulets down my shoulders. Scalding my skin till it turns a bright cooked red. It seems like hours as my once thick-layered hair now clings to my face, my nose, my eyes, stifling my breathing and I gasp for the air that would not come. I can hear myself swallow air, gulping it down, struggling against the knife like water. I focus on my breathing, my breathing of air, of water-heated air. Oppressing, sinking into my lungs…heated air fills it and yet I plummet, I do not rise but it fills me and pushes me down. My breathing slows, but still comes in sharp sudden gasps but I can't try for long, my eyes relax under the command of the heat, weighing on me, my heart, my soul…my lungs and I slip down into a corner and let the water do its work, beating at my shoulders, hot butter knives on my skin. But all I see is blessed black. Black. All I wanted was a peaceful black.
But death is never what can be expected is it…no…its too easy to die, to give up on life, to give up on pain to let the agony take you. One must continue. The last thing I remember is his accusing eyes…accusing me of taking the easy way…and giving in to just letting it go…but there is no rest for the weary and no shoulder to sleep on for the tired, just a promise that they would see tomorrow to make up for today.

I do believe that made absolutely no sense....but deres another portion I like but I won't make you read it...xD but wait dere is more that I need to let you read...it wuz going to be handed in before instead of the angsty excerpt above but it got too long so i'll let you read a lil of it...its about the typical soldier/princess serving her queen/princess/soon-to-be ruler and her whinying bout duty n da sort...

How long has it been since I have taken a walk along the gardens of Oriente? It seems like forever since the last time I saw the moonlit path and the flowers blossoming in all their beauty. If only for a while, it seems to pull a haze around my eyes and drag away the view of reality.
The guards are staring at me though...is it that late? The ball starts at 12 and I don’t need much time to prepare for such a vapid affair…even if it is in my honor. I couldn’t care less, it’ll be the same as last year…the same speech, the same guests, the same throwing of suitors at me, the same chaotic dancing. It seems so empty…swirling from person to person around the room, not courting just dancing and then moving on. I wasn’t made to dance and flirt like mad then run off with another. Really…the most idiotic of customs. But now those guards are really bothering me…if they come over I think I shall go mad. I’ll settle for slipping away though. This flimsy thing of a dress doesn’t block much wind and even a velvet shawl can only do so much, I don’t or want a cold on my birthday…but if I were to walk back onto palace grounds the guards will increase and they will gossip about me being out so late. The only option is to sneak in and out along the shadows. Leaning against cool and hard marble I shiver and slowly slink back to my room like a rat to its nest.
As I slipped into my room, the door barely creaking, the small figure sitting in the seat by the window became apparent.
“Sneaking in again mi dear?”
“Oh, stop being self-righteous, what are you doing in my rooms?”
“You have a better view then me of the stars.”
“You’re the princess, as you command they’d build a room for you to gaze at the stars from.”
“I suppose…but don’t you think they’re beautiful?”
“…lemme guess…he took you star-gazing?”
“Is it that obvious?”
“Its just how your eyes look when you stare at the stars, and then that far away dazed dreamy look…”
“But he’s sweet and wonderful and a gentleman.”
“I’ll take your word for it dear.”
“Sometimes I do believe you are too cynical for love Reilin.”
“And I know that love is too sarcastic for me Eliss…”
“It is a healthy sarcasm at worst and its beauty more then surpasses its sarcasm.”
“But alas, I am much to cowardly for love, or love to cowardly to try to tame me. So let it be and let me lie in my wonderful solitude.”
“Solitude it is then…but really, you arrived much too late to your rooms, I think our little chat must stop here and you must prepare…it is after all your party…”
“Party eh…I don’t even want to stay for the whole thing…really, a midnight soiree…what were they thinking? I have to make my usual obligatory appearance, listen to the same rant about adulthood as last year…flit from group to group, dance and in the middle of the party, while the queen is not paying attention I shall leave.”
“So you’ll dance then?”
“Only if I must.”
“As your princess, I command you to dance and I command you to have a good time.”
“God knows I’ll try but if I fall asleep do bring me to my room.”
“I’ll find one to do that then…”
“God, you and your remarks…I thought we were going to let my solitude alone?”
“Yes ma’am I’m out.”
“Meet me in front of my door at 11:50 then?”
“Yes…and be sure to wear something simply ostentatious, it’ll be interesting.”
“hmm…no.”
“Ruin my fun indeed…”
The door slips into its notch, the lock turns and I sigh. No need for masks now. I don’t want to go…I don’t want to be reminded of age…of my duty…to my family or to my princess.

It goes on but I will not torture you nemore then need be...I lyke the banter and the stupidity of it all...is that bad? *blink* YEA ne way moving along...i'll be baq later w/ a to-do-list n more complaints.
Song on Repeat - Yann Tiersen - Le fabuleux destin d'Amelie Poulain
Its piano, its excellent, Torrey recommended it I dl-ed it n its very....floaty n even a lil desperate at times...yea im imagining things....hehe

Monday, February 18, 2002
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Tinsel last fell at 06:04 p.m..
I feel so silly...even after pitas got back up I stopped blogging even tho I wanted to a coupla times...now I'm jes going to start randomly again because I have all this wierd stuff...this is more a journal then a blog...lolz, neone wanna find out wut a fuked up pershun I am come here. But starting frum da gud stuff....
I went skiiing...a LONNG-ass time ago...I died, but SUM1 wudn't let me sleep in da snow so here I am.
My math midterm went well...amazing.
My personal essay which I thought I failed got an A.
I actually danced at the Valentine's day dance. LOL
OKay now all da shit that happened...
i feel lyke im loosing sum friends n it realli sux...iono im jes stoopid lyke dat, i can't keep friends fer long fer sum reason...n lyke it bugs me cuz i kno i shudn't keep on doing things i do but i can't help it, its instinctive n it sux...its second nature to lecture n be flippant n cruel. so fuk me.
my report card wuz byootiful...well akshulli it wuz cept fer my eighty seven in spanish, my dad wuz slappin me around fer dat n mai average in general, is it my fault im fuking stoopid? I mean realli.
n lastly i can't help but feel lyke im changing in ways that i dun't lyke...lyke inside im da same pershun but outside in relation to others....im changing and i really just hate it...ya kno wen yoo dun mean to do things n yoo jes feel so two-faced wen yoo do it cuz da real yoo wud never do it but fer sum reason da person whuse on automatic is wierd? Iono...daily life has made me soft...sumtimes i dink i need drama to make myself me. lolzzz yea im scrooed up....but hey at least i admit it.

moving on to more interesting things...an account of yesterday...i failed my math test n i felt so weak n shitty wen i started crying ova it...cat n samantha were da only udda ones whu cried....but i lyke neva cry....ARgh but i cut 10 mins of music...yay. but afterwards mai math teacher mite jes throw out da test or give every one da thirty point curve we need. But once again moving on. I wuz kind of depressed at the beginning of the dance cuz no one came....margy, liz, sunna, sarah kathy alll didn't come so hence danny, howard, soon etc. didn't come either. (yea da guys dun realli matta but its vday so still) But karen, joyce torrey n co. went so it wuz funny. It wuz realli swt too wen karen n james lo got married n joyce got married to matthew park but dey ended up switching partners fer da dances...n so many guys got married to each other...dere all ready fer commitments but us girls are such players...we jes play the field lolzzz. but it wuz fun, i danced w/ jamie (ahah, liz n margy n dem missed it...tho i mite not have done it if dey were dere i wud be too busy talking) n patrick is such a funny dancer xD oo n torrey danced w/ ryu i wuz so proud...wahah. but ova all da dance wuzn't too gud...it wuz realli swt tho...ooo n ahaha um...pershun one whum i dun lyke but admire clothing of wuz dere fer a while, he snuck in n me n karen ran out fer da view. we played volleyball w/ balloons while sight seeing lolz. ooo n golden boy wuz dere also but he cudn't get in,ahha he wuz in da gayest red-orange shirt but he wuz very pretty. xD n yea daz everything fer now...deres nothing interesting cept da dance stuff.....n dere wuz a very intersting half day but not as interesting as da dance...yea neway, i dink ima go make up an ever after story...i watched da count of monte cristo n i read a lotta fairy tale books so i dink im high n ready to write...hehe n after yesterday im kinda high so i mmite akshulli do it....i'll try to blog more but i make no promises..lol okay.
Song on Repeat - R. Kelly - World's Greatest

Saturday, February 16, 2002
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Tinsel last fell at 06:19 p.m..
omg im going CRZY!~~~~ look wut i have to do all tonite:
english: two page creative writing bs
ss: two paragraph long essay questions (i hab no cloo wut da questions are!)
science: science board, prepare presentation
ct: presentation of scene with lizzie...costume??? lines???
math: math hw, i have to put up
spanish: study fer quiz tmr
AHHHH!~~~~ im NOT GOING TO SLEEP! EVER AGAIN!~ *dies* ish ALL due tmr, one presenatiion after the other! whu wants to kill me??? i mean am i dat bad dat dey want to pound me into the ground? i'm going EARLY to school and i am going to get COFFEE n get HIGH cuz i need it. RITE NOW i hab NUTHING done...so i better start or im scrooed....order of events is:
1. english essay to ...7:30
2. hopefully have ss hw by then to 8:15
3. start science presentation...4:30 am
4. math hw started
5. reviewing of lines till 5:30
6. prepeartion of science presentation...notecards till 7:00 wen i have to leave.
can yoo say shit ass scroo-ed? *siGh* yea i'm being bitchy n dramatic, shoot me, bite me, fuck me, scroo me jes kill me.
Song on Repeat: Goo Goo Dolls - Name
cuz eesh a coolioz song. xD

Monday, January 7, 2002
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Tinsel last fell at 07:18 p.m..
god i wuz wrong bout todae...partially at least...margaret came online, i talked to her, she screamed at her mother fer an hour n got out of the house...
Then when i left mai house fer da subway, mai dad dropped me off n dis fifty year old spanish drunken man turns to me n sez "hey honey, want 100 dollars yoo jes have to..." i wuz SO pissed off, i wuzn't scared cuz i wuz in a madd public place where he can't do jack but i wuz ready to kick his balls n fuck him up...but no, i walked by wit dish biashy attitude n got creme savers n gum. xD gud self control if i do say so mai self.
wen i got to flushing, i met howard, den danny, n NO one else came to flushing so im lyke, okay, lesh go to the theater n meet margaret n liz (sunna backed out) we go...we miss 3 buses and fer da last one i wuz running back then howard stopped me cuz he wanted to get sum presents...he ended up getting TWO things...n wen we arrived at da theater it wuz 2:20 n margaret wuz very irritated cuz we were supposed to be at 1:40...so i ended up wasting 10 bux buying a ticket n we DUN'T watch a movie...o well, i dun realli give a shit, it wuz mai parent's money neway, lolz... but i wanted to see ocean's 11! o well....but den margaret left, n got stalked by dish huge group of black ppl n she got sooo scared n wasn't mad nemore, she called up Danny n wuz lyke shiiitt im at mcdonalds n being stalked. (by den liz showed up) so we all went to mcdonalds n talked, chilled didn't eat. Then we went back to the theater till 4 until margaret had to leave n den da rest ob us walked back to flushing...whereupon howard wanted to play pool da rest of us didn't care, but den i wanted to go to nohrehbang however, wen we got there (after we went to modells), liz sed "wait a second...happy hour is over isn't it?" none of us wanted to go ask so we talked in front of nohrehbang den went to a chinese place cuz liz wanted sum FROZEN sua bing thing which howard ordered cuz mai chinese ish madd shitty lolz...i got bubble tea, howard left, danny stayed n watched me n liz eat...lolz. den after that we jes all went home...pathetic...*siGh* dat wuz a stoopid day n TOTALLI not as i planned...y ish it dat all da days planned by neone BUT sunna ALWAYS fall apart?????? jesuit chwist! but ayte, im done outlining mai day n biashing...ima go to sleep now lolz...aGh...todae wuz supposed to be SUPER good...n look how good it turned out...SIgh...
Song on Repeat: Enya-Ever After
yea im on a faery tale kick

Friday, January 4, 2002
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Tinsel last fell at 11:35 a.m..
every1's going out to celebrate margaret's bday (cuz hunter dun hab school todae, ish da entrance exam) except...margaret is under HOUSE ARREST fer god's sake...on her BDAY! ahhh!~~~ dat means ima have to carry her shirt (present)all around flushing da whole day jesuit chwist! dat biash betta wiggle outta trouble n come to flushing!
but everything else ish okay udda den dat....xDDDD but jeebus, i have to go shower...lolz, im scrooed if i dun get dere on time...okay, buh baiiizzz

Friday, January 4, 2002
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Tinsel last fell at 03:32 p.m..
*siGh* im damned pathetic, 2 pages, ONLY! I have 4 more to go. flying peeesh of SHIT. GRrR. dish eesh one pissed off lil grly. n geeebus, i HaTe makeup. No seriously, i went out fer food n i saw dis teenager, lyke 17, im lyke WHOA ish dat a mask or skin? she wuz paLe as shit n had BRIGHT lipstick i wuz lyke shit daz gross. geezus dat wuz madd nastay. but mebbe daz cuz im not used to the porcelain doll look....*siGh* but aiitez i feel so slow...i started frum 11 dis morning n now...ish almost 3:30 n i only did 2 pages...AgH. me come back n bish latta bout sumtin else...jeez, new year sux...^^:;;;; ima go find tea n do mai essay or jump off a bridge, if yoo c me in school with a cast, i prolli chose the latter...^-^ buh bai.
Song on Repeat: Ivy - Edge of the Ocean
frum roswell, isabel's wedding? (yup teenie bopper rite here)

Tuesday, January 1, 2002
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Tinsel last fell at 11:00 a.m..
*happi belated new years*
lesh reaccount last nite....i did bout....a paragraph of werk...stayed up to 3:12 doing an outline of mai essay and god knows what else...i created a new sn...akshulli two of them lolz. *sigh* so dat means i onli hab bout couple thousand or more paragraphs to go for mai essay...it'll prolli take me to 5 in the morning tmr. xD cheery ne?
new years resolutions:
-stop procrascinating
-exercise (--;;)
-stop being so damn teeniebopperish
-get sum damn morals...lolz.
-write more
-read lord of the rings w/o fainting
-get my room in order
-get my school stuff in order (--;;)
-not indulge in idiocy xD
-psychology is BaD 'nuff sed
-write more letters not email...puhehe
-not be vapid
-not hate life so much
-live what i preach doiK
n the most important resolution...*drumroll*
-sleep
xD aiitez, me go do mai freaking essay. stoopid fucker better be done soon...grRr
Song on Repeat: Creed-My Sacrifice
mi sister's influence hehe

Tuesday, January 1, 2002
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Tinsel last fell at 09:03 p.m..
I haven't excatly been faithful to my blogger hehe ^^;; daz prolli cuz my life is pretty damn smooth. Just normal bishings lyke mai school werk etc...n da rest of da stuff, really uninteresting. fer example rite now im supposed to be doing my science fair paper (3-6 pages) *ouch* There goes my hope fer a peaceful evening....im going to be work new years eve rite through new years *siGh* yea i love me. I was just thinking, ima enter the new year almost completely different frum last year. change bites mai fat ass...(a lot fatter den last year im afraid...--;;;) but neway, before i start drowning in vapidity/or mai own fat, lesh move on. Wow i'm such a sap dese days, im obssessed wit da faery tale concept...I want to write one ob mai own *beams* but i also want to write the story of lucifer. damn mai noisy brain. all dish while i should be writing mai paper...where's mi beloved karen???? she's doing da same topic so i can ask her fer help muhehe. vacation ish gonna end soon...god no...n den report cards....flying fuck...o well...im scroo-ed. wow, im so depressed, grades are...kinda low....to say da least...but im a dumbass bite me. n shYt...mi ss n spanish grade...gonna swoop madd low...*wah* just thinking bout it makes me wanna jump...nd evr since last time...cuhrap. but ya know....im gonna stop caring n ima stop driving myself crzy. im going to focus on not failing science rite now n not burst into tears...ps...wtf to get margaret fer her bday??!!
Song on repeat: Plumb-Stranded thanks to sunna. she's mai swtay hostee.

Monday, December 31, 2001
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